No more clouds

When I started this blog, it was for my second semester filler, intro to college class, Beginnings. In Beginnings, we talked about our personalities, had some community time and learned about self image at college. It is not uncommon for the first semester of college to be overwhelming and mine was no  sun -set exception. I was going through changes,trying to find myself, protect myself, and work tirelessly on my academics. Looking back on my first journal entries in this some what emotional blog as well as the title of the blog, I have come to a thrilling conclusion...I no longer "fly through storm clouds". First of all...the clouds are gone...I have decided to eliminate the idea of my sunny,california life being filled with a certain looming sadness and birth from ashes. I am no phynix. I am a woman filled with potential. This blog can attest that I had constant restraint. The idea of free happiness seemed to only excist for the popular go getters or exuberents. To be fair, I think working at camp and finding my place in the world has dragged me where I am now. In addition to some sound bites of wisdom from people who I was recently given the opportunity to know were essential as well. I just don't have to fly through the storms of life anymore. I don't need to compete with the lightning bolts. I can be fresh out of the shower happy... Walking...through grassy fields. By streams of water like God intended. And be happy. I don't have to be strong and white- knuckle determined to servive. I just get to walk. Gleening off of the wheat of excess. Not because I can afford to, but because I know God will take care of me. He will be there. I have nothing to fear.